At the time of me writing this, we are just starting the month of May and mother’s day is right around the corner
If you’ve been following me for some time, you know that Mother’s Day for me was a very triggering holiday for decades (most of my life)
Because I didn’t have my birth mother most of my life, there was a huge abandonment wound and a lot of fear drove my life choices
Then, when I became a mom in 2009, all sorts of my own trauma of BECOMING and BEING a mother/wife was terrifying for me
And drove me in 14 years worth of self sabotaging behaviors, limiting beliefs and addiction
I didn’t have any conscious realization of this UNTIL I hit rock bottom and asked for help
That’s when plant medicine and shadow work came calling to save me from myself
Without it, I honestly believe I would be dead today
Once I started microdosing with psilocybin and then ayhauasca a year later, I found deeper relief and healing
I had to start the deeper core mother wound of abandonment with deep dive medicine and deep shadow work, as well as supportive embodiment practices like breathwork, meditation, yoga, etc.
But even after a year of that, microdosing helped me work through the DAILY self sabotage and monkey mind that abandonment and fear still keep picking away at my daily life
When we come from a deep mother/feminine wound, it takes months, even years, to unwind that from our central nervous system
I had to unwind that human DOING/forcing energy that was so masculine
I also wanted to tap into my own feminine energy and connect deeper with women for the first time in my life (I honestly struggled with all women’s groups and building deeper relationships with women)
I didn’t want it to always be about business when it came to relationships either – which was very masculine
Without healing that mother wound, the real shock for me, was I struggled with making money and KEEPING it.
I was blocking my openness and receptivity (which is feminine healed energy) and so I would make money, only to “lose” it
But the fact of the matter is, when you heal the feminine and reunite it with a healed masculine, you can enjoy receiving money AND keeping it!
You can enjoy playfulness and fun AND enjoy your work life (without being a workaholic)
Microdosing with both psilocybin and ayahuasca taught me that
Do you struggle with openness and receptivity?
Do you struggle with making money and keeping it?
Do you struggle with female relationships?
OR maybe you even struggle with your body image as a woman/mom?
Maybe you wanna bring sexy back, however, in a society where that definition has been demeaned a tad…you don’t know where to begin?
You struggle with working too much and not having FUN???
You are worthy and more than enough to have ALL OF THAT
Ohhhhhh and the best part, is I was also able to heal deeply with my kids and my husband and bring much more fun and romance back into my marriage and family life
For Mom’s are the pivotal cornerstone of a family
And maybe, just maybe, yours didn’t model that super well
She did the best she could
And now you get to break through cycles of that being different
It all starts with YOU
If any of this resonates with you, send me an email at support@microdosingforhealth.com
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www.MagdalenaGrace.com